nero is burning rome

by joey on august, 11 2025

is it just me, or is everything getting worse everywhere really fast on purpose? is this how people in the past felt and i was too young to remeber? or am i the only one who feels like this right now? is everyone just an ai designed to fuck with me?

is there anybody out there?

it's so hard to not be a doomer right now, my mind keeps pulling me in knots trying to chase some kind of sense.
i have to keep being hopeful and i have to keep trying, giving up is how facism wins. i want to fight back, but i don't know how to start, i don't have any valuable skills and i'm afraid i won't be able to learn or teach myself.

or is it entirely out of my hands and everything is good actually. i go on the hellsite, twitter, and i see nothing but accounts applauding every choice like seals. i know these are bots, but, who isn't? i check r/conservative, i want to know what actual real human americans think of all this. real accounts get banned for even questioning the government, i can't just assume these are real people either. facebook, you can see pictures and profiles, but i still can't tell who is real anymore.
i saw footage of a botfarm in action a few months ago and it made me sick to my stomach. i have to, for my own optimism and sanity, assume everyone account on the internet is a bot.

sometimes, i feel like some bigger being is going to step in, someone or something is going to finally say "thats enough, you failed the simulation." and it will all be over. like a tv being switched off.

but then what? that doesn't solve anything, it doesn't help anyone. it just soothes my brain. every single day we are accelorating the downfall of america. more and more awful things keep happening, and i dont know how to stop it. are we beyond being saved?

it just keeps getting worse and i don't know who is even out there anymore.
i wish i had an answer on what to do, i hope i can make a follow up to this blog entry... i want to learn and try to fight back.

i need to learn how to protect better and take care of my community.